stop puzzlin' me!

this one goes to a guy that i hve known for a very long time. i knew this guy when i was 18 i guess.. or early 19. he used to be my lover. but only for a month,perhaps. after then we broke up. i can't stand his mouth. fulls of shit words! hehehe..

but after we broke up, we still become friends n much more closer than before.. sorry for my exs later on,cz i still contact with this fella i still got feelings for him. hee~ naughty me! :p

n yes,till now i still contact with this fella. n i dont know y i cant let him go. i feel guilty for being his friend but i still in love with him. well i dont know if this what u called love. but what i feel rite now is that there's like something tied us together. we r like magnet! we cant be apart. whenever he decide to leave me,he leaves me only for at least for few weeks. plg lama pun maybe a month.. after that he will come n find me. he starts to text me n called. i never feel gross towards him. thou he always sayin shit words to me like "bodoh" n "babi". i know that he only gonna say this words when he really mad at me! really fuckin' mad at me!!!

yg aku x tahan psal die nie.. die suka main teka teki ngn aku. kejap die uat aku pk yg die nk kt aku.. tp kejap lg die uat aku pk mcm,

"alah,die nie saja jer nk maen maen kn perasaan aku.."

aku pk mcm nie sbb die pnh ckp kt aku yg die x ready nk ada commitment ngn aku. so.. izit a good feedback or not?? its not a good one rite? huhuuu
aku mmg x phm apa die nk dr aku.. what he expects from me? my love? or what?

he used to sing to me "kekasih gelapku", "blind" n "one more sad song". lyrics lagu lagu nie mmg sweet sangat. got a very deep meanin'. meanin' yg die nk stay ngn aku.. yg dia sayang aku all this while n still in love with me.. everytime aku dgr lagu lagu nie,aku mesti ingt kt die..

n aku pernah mnangis time karaoke lagu "kekasih gelapku". cz rinduuu sangat kt die.. n teringat kt die!

tp tuh lah,he never said this to me

"nadia,will u be my girlfriend once again?"

tp kan,kalo dia propose aku pown,aku x sure aku nk kt die ker x.. afraid of the same thing repeated again! huhuuu~
so skrg aku just ignore benda nie.. i dont take it serious. cz bilaa dh involve bab hati n perasaan,everything will change. so i rather to stay like this n being his forever friend.. mmg aku sayang dia,so dats y aku lg rela aku n dia mcm nie sahaja.. :)