EGO. salah ke?

salah ke aku ego dlm percintaan? frankly, aku mmg xkan start any 1st move to start a serious relationship.. aku x boleh.. walau mcm mana suka nya aku kt mamat tuh.. aku lebih suka pendam. aku x kan bgtau dia yg aku suka kt dia unless dia yg start the 1st move.. dh byk kali aku buat mcm nie.. n yes, this wasn't my 1st time i loose the man that i like n bout to love him..

aku ego mayb,1st,sbb aku x nak dia reject aku. mana ada girl boleh terima kalau dia kene reject dgn laki yg dia suka. sakit tao.. n yeah, malu gilaaa! huhuuu~

well,my biggest reason is because, yeah, whenever there is a guy tries to approach for a serious relationship,i rather to say "u deserve to b with someone better than me". so mayb laki tuh ingt aku x nk dia.. pdahal,aku minx hold on kejap.. bg aku ms utk pk.. lgpun laki tuh ptot tao yg aku mmg slesa bkwn ngn dia,so takda sbb aku nk reject dia mcm tuh..

for the guys, if after a quite long time we've been friends n i slalu bercerita anything with u means i slesa berkwn dgn u.. n it shud not b a problem for us to further our relationship,tp i need some time for this.. give me time to know u,to understand u n to accept u for who u really r.. that's y i minx kita berkwn dlu.. bukan sbb i reject u 100%.. don't u get it ?

ada sebab knapa aku suruh lelaki tuh pilih prempuan lain dr aku.. ada reason yg sgt besar.. kalau kau boleh dpt prempuan yg lg bgus drpd aku knapa x kau terima jer dia? aku byk sgt kelemahan n rite now aku tgh perbetulkan diri aku.. when it comes to get into a relationship,aku akn jd sgt low confident.. aku harap kau phm.. aku yg bmasalah.. bukan kau..

so yeah,because all of this,aku jd semakin ego.. especially to boys! sorry.. perangai aku yg 1 nie mmg susah nk d ubah.. guys outside there,yg trasa nk serious ngn aku,pk dlu k? aku x nk hilang friendship yg dh ada skrg.. aku xnk semakin hilang kwn kwn.. please understand me.. i hope u can..