EGO. salah ke?

salah ke aku ego dlm percintaan? frankly, aku mmg xkan start any 1st move to start a serious relationship.. aku x boleh.. walau mcm mana suka nya aku kt mamat tuh.. aku lebih suka pendam. aku x kan bgtau dia yg aku suka kt dia unless dia yg start the 1st move.. dh byk kali aku buat mcm nie.. n yes, this wasn't my 1st time i loose the man that i like n bout to love him..

aku ego mayb,1st,sbb aku x nak dia reject aku. mana ada girl boleh terima kalau dia kene reject dgn laki yg dia suka. sakit tao.. n yeah, malu gilaaa! huhuuu~

well,my biggest reason is because, yeah, whenever there is a guy tries to approach for a serious relationship,i rather to say "u deserve to b with someone better than me". so mayb laki tuh ingt aku x nk dia.. pdahal,aku minx hold on kejap.. bg aku ms utk pk.. lgpun laki tuh ptot tao yg aku mmg slesa bkwn ngn dia,so takda sbb aku nk reject dia mcm tuh..

for the guys, if after a quite long time we've been friends n i slalu bercerita anything with u means i slesa berkwn dgn u.. n it shud not b a problem for us to further our relationship,tp i need some time for this.. give me time to know u,to understand u n to accept u for who u really r.. that's y i minx kita berkwn dlu.. bukan sbb i reject u 100%.. don't u get it ?

ada sebab knapa aku suruh lelaki tuh pilih prempuan lain dr aku.. ada reason yg sgt besar.. kalau kau boleh dpt prempuan yg lg bgus drpd aku knapa x kau terima jer dia? aku byk sgt kelemahan n rite now aku tgh perbetulkan diri aku.. when it comes to get into a relationship,aku akn jd sgt low confident.. aku harap kau phm.. aku yg bmasalah.. bukan kau..

so yeah,because all of this,aku jd semakin ego.. especially to boys! sorry.. perangai aku yg 1 nie mmg susah nk d ubah.. guys outside there,yg trasa nk serious ngn aku,pk dlu k? aku x nk hilang friendship yg dh ada skrg.. aku xnk semakin hilang kwn kwn.. please understand me.. i hope u can..

hanya ingin kau tahu - republik

Ku telah miliki
Rasa indahnya perihku
Rasa hancurnya harapku
Kau lepas cintaku

Rasakan abadi
Sekalipun kau mengerti
Sekalipun kau pahami
Ku pikir ku salah mengertimu

Aku hanya ingin kau tahu
Besarnya cintaku
Tingginya khayalku bersamamu

Tuk lalui waktu yang tersisa kini
Di setiap hariku
Di sisa akhir nafas hidupku

Walaupun semua hanya ada dalam mimpiku
Hanya ada dalam anganku
Melewati hidup

Rasakan abadi
Sekalipun kau mengerti
Sekalipun kau pahami
Ku pikir ku salah mengertimu

i wish u know how i feel for u from the start..
lettin' u go wasn't the easiest thing to do..
but i rather leave u,than pretendin' in front of u..
u r with her rite now,so i fly away..
to give both of u the space of LOVE..
goodbye my love..
-the end-

my playmates! :)

light grey : KIKI

ini COCO n KIKI! :)
tp,skrg, KIKI dh xda.. dia dh mati.. so sad! n skrg,aku mmg rindu gilaa kt KIKI. :`(

orange : BOOLAT

stripes grey : COMEL

grey : COCO

so these are my cats!!! hehehe.. rite now i got 3 cats. COMEL (along), COCO (angah), BOOLAT (acik). aku suka sangat maen ngn dorg.. sbb dorg sgt best! tp aku tkowt sket nk gurau lebih lebih ngn COMEL. sbb dia sangat garang! korg tgk muka dia pown korg tao kn dia tuh mmg garang. kaki nenek aku dh brape kali kne ngap ngn COMEL! hehehe.. aku rs aku pnh kne cakar ngn si COMEL tuh.. n fyi, COMEL skrg jd leader of the cats kt area umah aku nie.. sume kucing tkowt ngn dia! hehe.. n mostly,kucing kucing betina kt cni,cmfirm kne "ehem ehem" ngn COMEL aku nie! hehehe.. taiko nie! jgn maen maen wehh.. hahaha

well,si COCO nie dlu ada partner,nama dia KIKI! but unfortunately, KIKI dh mati.. :(
tragic gilaa kematian dia owhh..
adik aku terjumpa KIKI kt dlm longkang. xtao lah dia lemas ke x,then 2 3 ari after that,KIKI mati ngn mulut berbuih buih. mayb dia keracunan. n perhaps,org racun kan dia!!! damn it!!! dulu COCO n KIKI rpt gilaa,dorg mmg dh couple dr dly agy. aku dpt COCO n KIKI nie dr kg aku kt terengganu. pak ngah aku kasii.. dorg baka siam. so bulu dorg mmg fabulous gilaa! lagi lagi si KIKI nie! hehehe.. since KIKI dh xda, COCO dh x lincah mcm dlu.. byk mnyendiri.. :(
so sad!

now psal si BOOLAT plak! hehehe.. actually aku dh x nk bela kucing lg.. sbb ayh aku mmg x brapa suka sgt ngn kucing.. dia x tahan bao taik kucing nie.. well,mne ada org suka bau taik kucing! hehehe.. nenek aku jumpa BOOLAT nie tgh jln kt tepi jln. comot gilaa dia time nenek aku jumpa.. so nenek aku trasa nk bela si BOOLAT nie,aku mula mula xnk. but then,bila tgk muka si BOOLAT nie,aku rs geram plak! nenek aku pown teros mandikan BOOLAT,smpai jari nenek aku kne geget ngn BOOLAT. hahaha.. kucing x penah kne mandi,teros terkejoot lah!hehehe.. n perot si BOOLAT nie mmg gemook gilaa! that's y aku pgl dia BOOLAT.. mula mula aku pgl dia BOTAK,cz dia mmg botak. kt kepala dia x da bulu.. myb kne cukur ngn org.. huhuu sian gilaa BOOLAT aku nie! BOOLAT nie kucing betina.. n mmg manja habis! hehe :)

so skrg nie,aku ada 3 kucing! n mmg seronok btoll! hehe =D

haircut mengejut!

yayyy! so this is my new haircut! i dont know either i like it or i regret to cut it like this.. hahaha..

well,first,aku decide nk cut my hair sbb weather skrg pnas sgt. n rambot aku plak jenis rmbot yg sgt tebal. so aku rimas! that's y aku g layer rambot aku td.. ahmoii salon tuh x bg nipis kn lagi rmbot aku,dia suruh layer jer.. so aku pown agree lah.

2nd plak,aku skrg mmg dh x suka nk rmbot panjang.. prefer to have short hair. so aku pown x pk byk kali sgt,aku teros lah g salon pg td.. hehehe :)

actually mcm regret lah sket cz rmbot aku dh x bob. nie dh bukan rmbot bob dah cz rmbot aku dh x boolat mcm dlu.. huhuhu

tp xper lah,i dont mind sangat,rmbot aku still akn tumbuh.. n boring lah plak asyik haircut yg sama jer! hehehe :D

well okey,so this is my new haircut.. hope u guys will like it!

MMMMMWAH!

SHOWDOWN 2010

it's so sad.. :(
frankly,im quite disappointed with GBC during the battle session. cz they were more outstandin s a solo dancer rather than s a group. i would like to see them s a group battlin' with the opponent. but overall, yeah, i'm so proud with them! the way they dance, their style, their creativity n of course their attitude. :)

that what makes me so envy with them cz they so fuckin' can DANCE!!!! i wish i can dance like them s well thou they r guys so they r more fit n their skills r more tougher n killer! hehe

whatever it is.. i will always vote for u guys n support u guys! i never stop votin' for u guys cz frm week to week u guys never disappointed me unless for this week,during the battle session. that's all. so, never stop tryin n make us proud peps of GILLER BATTLE CREW ( GBC )

I LOVE U GUYS TO THE TOP! =D

yayyy! saya dapat cupcakes!

ini lah cupcakes saya! my bestfriend, Zulaiha Atikah made it for me.. :)

sangat cantek n yes sangat sedap! :)

hahaha xdpt lah aku nk diet.. mkin gemook lah aku pasni! adoii.. haha aku dh lah pantang tgk cake.. mmg aku bedal jer! xksah lahh.. this is my gift,after this jer lah aku diet balik.. hehe :D

thanks Zue for this cute cupcakes.. sedap btoll! :D
next year bday aku,kau uat cupcakes utk aku lg eh? ehehehe..

I LOVE U ZUE! MMMMWAH!
THESE CUPCAKES BEST!
=D

kuciwa hatiku!

huhuuu.. sedih doh. kasut yg aku nk beli xda. so x dpt lah beli kasut br!! uwaaa~ :(

mula mula aku g cr sneakers nike kt PAVI. aku g search kt DE STADIUM. byk murah tp x menarik hati ku.. hehe then aku g lah NIKE kt sbelah cinema tuh. bukan maen excited aku! hehe..

actually aku dh tertarik ngn satu kasut nie.. mmg cun habis lah! red+black color. and kt side kasot tuh ada red color yg bling bling. hehe.. mmg nice sangat! aku try lah kasot tuh.. kasot tuh sizze 6. n x muat!!! hahaha aku ingt aku still size 6. then aku try 7. 7 pown mcm ketat skit.. hehe. so salesboy tuh tlg cr kn size 7.5 utk aku. seb baek lah nike ada size half half.

but unfortunately, size size besar dh takde. cz kasot tuh selling fast. rmai dh beli.. huhuu sedih gilaa aku. harga kasot tuh mmg mhl sket tp aku dh bkenan sgt! price dia rm279. tp x dpt nk bli jugaak.. huu~ sedih btol.

then aku text kwn aku plak.. tanya kt mana lagi ada NIKE. kwn aku ckp ada kt TIME SQUARE. so aku pown g lah kt TIMES SQUARE cr kasot tuh.. tp xda jugak! hahaha.. NIKE kt TIME SQUARE tuh byk yg old stock jer. yg br x byk sgt.. sedih aku.. then aku try lah yg lain lain kt NIKE tuh,tp mcm mcm hal lah plak! xda size kecik lah,xda size besar lah,n plg kelakar skali.. got this pair of shoes yg colour x sama. color dasar kasot tuh putih,sbelah kasot mmg putih btol,tp lagi sbelah kasot tuh kuning kuning sket! ape kesss!!?? hahaha last last aku blah jerr.. malas dh nk menepek kt situh.. hehe

well,aku try search kt KAPPA jugak. kt cto byk ADIDAS. tp aku kalo boleh x nk dah bli ADIDAS. cz dh pnh try.. this time nk try NIKE plak! hehe.. ada satu kasot ONITSUKA TIGER nie,mmg nice! harga rm300 but got 40% discount. aku try jugak kasot tuh, black+white+purple. nice lah.. tp mayb x cocok ngn aku kowt! kwn aku ckp x seswai ngn aku.. hehe.. thank god aku x bli kasot tuh! :)

so aku pulang lah dgn kehampaan n kekuciwaan! hehe.. lain yg nak lain yg ada.. aku shoppin ZARA n F21 jer smlm.. xda mood nk shoppin yg lain lain cz xdpt nk bli kasot!!! uwaaa~

this friday,insyallah,aku n member aku nk g OU plak.. cr kasot kt sana. n hopefully ada! kalo x da gak,last destination : KLCC! hehe :)

I WONT GIVE UP TILL I GET MY NIKE SNEAKERS! =D

moments :)

hehehe.. rindu gilaa moment ini! bersama apek ini! hahaha.. boyfriend yang sangat sempoi n yeah, till now,he is my bestfriend ever. :)
bila ntah nk lepak lagi ngn apek nie.. bz sangat ngn kerja.. yelah,kumpul duit nak kawen! hehehe

well,fid,i noe u xkan bc blog i cz u kn malas nk bc karangan panjang panjang nie.. hehehe..
but babe,i just wanna tell u that,thanks for everything k? from we were being friends,the get coupled n break n become friends back n closer. :)

i x pnh mnyesal couple n break ngn u,cz yeah,we still good now. thats more important. tiba tiba jer i rindu kt u.. haha thats y teros post blog nie.. hee~
hope u dont mind babe!

ALL THE BEST IN YOUR LIFE APEK!

-much love n respect from me- :)

one more probs added

hahaha i just love it when i already got a probs and a person added it to double it! hehehe...

well td abah tanya aku kasut mcm mana yg aku nak beli kt kl nnti. dia nk tgk. dia nk aku beli kasut yg dia pun berkenan lah tgk.. so aku pon google some of nike highhcut n lowcut n show them to him. hmm.. obviously my daddy didnt like the highcut sneakers. he prefers the lowcut one. n PLUS, he now loves to see the MIDDLECUT sneakers!!! hahahaha

dats what i said,aku dah lah pening nk bli low or high,n now my dad suka plak tgk yg middle cut. hehehe.. kelakar btol. aku tanya my dad,cntek x if bottom skinny jeans tuh masok dalam kasot if kasot tuh jnis highcut. this is what he said :

"ishh.. mcm orang kampung jer.mana ada org pkai mcm tuh."

ekekeke.. tergelak aku. okey,he got his point. :)

actually aku dah suka ngn satu sneakers from nike nie,red+black+white colors. tp kalo x silap aku,lowcut. new arrival. but unfortunately,price dia aku x check bcz at that time sebok jer salesboy tuh ikot ikot aku. mcm lah aku x mampu nk beli! or.. mcm lah aku nak curiik kasot tuh weh! hahaha geram sudaaa.

so aku ingt aku nk bli kasot tuh jerr.. malas nk survey survey lagi. hehe.. chances utk aku bli lowcut is higher than the highcut. bcz ayah aku x suka aku pkai highcut thou its a trend now. hehehe.. kwn kwn aku pkai highcut,aku pown nak jugaaak! :(

but i guess aku kne lupakan lah highcut tuh,xpown next time pown boleh jugak aku rembat highcut tuh! hehehe :D

this is all for u dad! i just wanna make sure that the investment u make is worth it.. hehe :)

things that im gonna buy

1. sneakers (either lowcut or highcut,haven't decided yet) from NIKE
2. leggings from F21
3. a tee from ZARA
4. balerina shoes from NOSE
5. hot pants from COTTON ON
6 . jeans ( either from PULL & BEAR or ZARA )

hmm.. hopefully aku boleh beli semua ini dgn rm300. rm300 from my own money and rm300 from my dad (for the sneakers). but i wish i can reduce the cost for all of this. beli jer mana yg perlu and yg slalu aku pakaii.. hehehe banyak jugak aku akn spent this time.. huhu

well.. Tuesday of 15th June is the day for me to get all of these stuff. hehe. c me there at Pavillion! :)

im crossin' my finger so that i can get a new sneakers from NIKE today.. ahuuuui~ =F

bbq nite!

first of all,sorry guys. no pix r uploaded. hehehe. xsempat. semua excited nk masak n nk makan. x sempat nak snap snap. hehehe..

well.. two words : SANGAT SERONOK! =D

akhirnya tercapai gak niat aku nak uat bbq utk adik adik aku.. dlu pown mmg slalu uat bbq kt umah aku,tp utk kawan kawan abang aku,so adik adik aku x involve. dorg dok dalam umah jer. segan nak keluar join. so this time,this bbq is only for my family n my sibs. not for anyone else for sure. :)
so.. sorry geng geng KRU,because we didnt invite u guys. :)

officially start bakar arang td pown around 8pm. agak lama lah jugaak nak setup api and bbq set tuh. tuh semua abang aku handle.. once dah siap,ayam ayam tuh aku n adik adik lelaki aku yang bakar. drumstick n wings : 20pieces. hotdogs : 28pieces. enough for everyone.

aku buat semua nie pown cz cuti sekolah kali nie aku and family x plan nk holiday mana mana. so thats y buat bbq nie so that adik adik aku x bosan dok umah.. at least they got their own event. hehe.. n aku plak mmg suka uat uat keje macam nie.. so,yeah. SANGAT BEST! hehehe :)

well lastly, s long the event is involvin' my family then yeah,i guess i will definitely enjoyin' myself to the fullest!!! =D

injured! hahaha

tanggal 9/6/2010,aku telah ditimpa kecelakaan d dpur. time aku nk bukak fridge kt dpur tuh,tup tup aku GEDEBUUUK! jatuh atas lantai.. hahaha gilaa ah! sakiit nak matii.. semua nya gara gara adik aku x lap air tumpah ngn btoll kt depan fridge tuh.. huhuu last last aku yg jd mangsa. kaki kanan aku nie dh lah cacat,di tambah plak ngn bengkak n lebam kt lutut kanan aku nie.. so mmg makin jatuh lah harga hantaran aku nnti! HAHAHA tp thank god lah,aku yg jatuh,cuba korg bayang kn kalau nenek aku yg jtoh.. pergh! xsnggup aku nk bayang kan.. kecian ohh! so,korg pown kecian kn lah kt aku nie yerr.. hehehe

maybe it's time

maybe it's time for me to open my heart for someone else.. :)

stop puzzlin' me!

this one goes to a guy that i hve known for a very long time. i knew this guy when i was 18 i guess.. or early 19. he used to be my lover. but only for a month,perhaps. after then we broke up. i can't stand his mouth. fulls of shit words! hehehe..

but after we broke up, we still become friends n much more closer than before.. sorry for my exs later on,cz i still contact with this fella i still got feelings for him. hee~ naughty me! :p

n yes,till now i still contact with this fella. n i dont know y i cant let him go. i feel guilty for being his friend but i still in love with him. well i dont know if this what u called love. but what i feel rite now is that there's like something tied us together. we r like magnet! we cant be apart. whenever he decide to leave me,he leaves me only for at least for few weeks. plg lama pun maybe a month.. after that he will come n find me. he starts to text me n called. i never feel gross towards him. thou he always sayin shit words to me like "bodoh" n "babi". i know that he only gonna say this words when he really mad at me! really fuckin' mad at me!!!

yg aku x tahan psal die nie.. die suka main teka teki ngn aku. kejap die uat aku pk yg die nk kt aku.. tp kejap lg die uat aku pk mcm,

"alah,die nie saja jer nk maen maen kn perasaan aku.."

aku pk mcm nie sbb die pnh ckp kt aku yg die x ready nk ada commitment ngn aku. so.. izit a good feedback or not?? its not a good one rite? huhuuu
aku mmg x phm apa die nk dr aku.. what he expects from me? my love? or what?

he used to sing to me "kekasih gelapku", "blind" n "one more sad song". lyrics lagu lagu nie mmg sweet sangat. got a very deep meanin'. meanin' yg die nk stay ngn aku.. yg dia sayang aku all this while n still in love with me.. everytime aku dgr lagu lagu nie,aku mesti ingt kt die..

n aku pernah mnangis time karaoke lagu "kekasih gelapku". cz rinduuu sangat kt die.. n teringat kt die!

tp tuh lah,he never said this to me

"nadia,will u be my girlfriend once again?"

tp kan,kalo dia propose aku pown,aku x sure aku nk kt die ker x.. afraid of the same thing repeated again! huhuuu~
so skrg aku just ignore benda nie.. i dont take it serious. cz bilaa dh involve bab hati n perasaan,everything will change. so i rather to stay like this n being his forever friend.. mmg aku sayang dia,so dats y aku lg rela aku n dia mcm nie sahaja.. :)

rockin' ulu yam!

06 . 06 . 2010

hari ini dalam sejarah. for the first time my lil sista, alya qistina has gone to picnic at the river. ulu yam river! hehehe.. alya x penah mandi sungai pun b4 this,so this is her first time. n seems like she's so excited and havin' so much fun! :)

abah plak,sombong,x nk bwk sluar mandi.. kn dah x dpt join anak2 n wifey die mandi!! hehehe..
abah n wan just watchin us from far jer. xdpt nk terjun sama sama! haha..

i m so excited cz dh dpt tunai kn janji aku kat alya. aku dh janji kat dia yg nk bwk dia mandi sungai.. so dh tercapai lah hasrat dia n i've made my promise! :)

i will never forget this memorable moment we had together.. i love u all fuckin' much!!! mmmuah!!! =D

i'll make sure i have one of this for my KASUT RAYA! yayyy! =D

JAKE GYLLENHAAL

( : MY BIGGEST CRUSH EVER!!! :)

kelakar betol!

td aku tersalah call 1 number nie. so that fella call aku balik... so this is the conversation :

him : hello?
me : yes.
him : td awak call number nie kan?
me : a'ah. hmm.. sorry,saya tersalah number lah.
him : oh yeke?
me : yup. sorry..
him : oh,its okey..
me : okey lah,sorry once again. bye.
him : oh okey okey.. bye..

nie coversation yg pertama. but after a few minutes,he called me back!

him : assalamualaikum?
me : yes? (pndai btol aku,org bg salam,x reti nk jwb.. haha)
him : maaf lah kalo saya telefon nie. tp boleh x saya nk tanya someting?
me : errr.. yes?
him : kenapa awak boleh tersalah number eh?
me : ohh.. hmm.. number phone awak ada no 8 kn? number kwn saya ada no 6. bukan 8. thats y tersalah tekan tadi.. so sorry..
him : ohh okeyy.. hmmm.. kalau awk x kisah,saya nk tau awak tinggal kt mana..?
me : err.. kenapa eh awak nk tao?
him : saja jer.. kalo boleh saya nk BERKENALAN dgn awk.. (sempat lagi kauuu!!) kalo awak x de bf ker or x kawin lagi ker..
me : oh.. maaflah,saya dah BERKAHWIN!
him : oh yeke?? maaf maaf yer.. okey lah,bye.
me : okey.. bye.

HAHAHAHA the biggest lie ive ever made!!! ekekeke.. lepas aku jwb phone call tuh aku trus tergelak kaw kaw pnya! hahaha ape pnya jantan lah.. desperate sgt nk berkwn. asal silap call jer,trus nk cucuk jarum! ape daaa.. come on ah! hahaha tp kn,suara die not bad lah. suara laki sejati! haha. tp sorry.. WRONG NUMBER! HAHA =p

dalam dilemma

apa yg guys pndang pd seorg girl eh? izit her looks? her style? her hair? her smile? or her heart?
how can a man see a girl's heart? hmmm.. confused. y ada certain guys suka sgt girl die look so very hot! n some guys suka girl yg simple simple n biasa jer. which one is better? its very unfair to say that a hot guy with a hot chick are bound together only just for SEX! its not true. ive seen the real one. n it is so naive to say that all bertudung girls r nice. NAH! NOPE! some of them r worst than the sexy girls. so what makes two persons become one? n what makes them stay together?

aku sbenar nya dalam dilemma jugaak lah. aku admit yg aku nie mmg suka dress sexy. i love to wear sexy outfit like mini skirt n mini dress. dat's me. thou some say that "nadia,b urself." hey! this is myself! im being me! bila aku mcm nie org cop aku mcm2.. perempuan club,alcoholic,playgirl n so many more. padahal aku bukan tuh sume.. dr outfit aku,org judge aku yg bukan. pdahal aku suka pkai mcm nie cz i love fashion. dont talk bout sins to me. every peps r sinners. its just the matter of tiny or big sins. i admit that i dont have the confident to hangout or to go out whenever im not sexy. hehehe. stupid rite? yeah,i guess. hehehe..

so,smpai skrg lah aku terpk,y certain guys suka girl nya hot n y certain guys prefer simple girl to b his queen of heart. hehe.. they must have their own reason. but for me,i hope my dream guy will b able to accept me for who i m. for who i m now n will not take me for granted. i m so excited waitin for my prince charming! :)

that person

i realised that we were no longer closed like b4. u change. i change. n yes,i admit that i miss our old sweet moments together. we did have fun together but it only stays for a while. i dun exactly know what happened,suddenly,we tear apart. u,with ur own life. n me,with my own life s well. i'm not blamin u 100% for what had happened between us,but i regret that all this while u were never sincere to be my friend. frankly,i love u. u r nice to me. ops,sorry. u WERE nice to me. i never tot that u will turn ur back on me. u were talking crap with the other friends. for what? y u must do dat? what did i do to u? i've never lie to u. i've never steal any of ur guy friends n it was never cross at my mind at all! so,how could u?

from day to day,i try to forgive u n to forget every single shit things u did to me. but it seems like,u create more drama than before. n now,its not just me that avoiding u,but some. u should realised ur mistakes. dont pretend like u know everything n dont ever lie. cz yes,we r no longer believe in ur crappy talks. i feel pity for u,u got everything,but zero attitude. when we dont know about a thing,doesn't mean we r stupid. we r not perfect,we dont know everything. so its okey to admit "no,i dont about that" rather than "oh,ya ya,i know that.. that thing that..bla..bla..bla..". u make urself look dumb. n thats pathetic.

we love u for who u r babe. not for who u r tryin to be. be grateful for what u have. every peps in this world have their own strength,so do u. i just wish u can open ur eyes n open ur heart to change. i just dont want u to look awful in other peps eyes. hope u get what i mean. all the best to u.. may god bless u! i still love u no matter what.. :)