b4 this aku ingt smpai bila2 aku nk berdendam ngn dia.. yes,sbb aku bengang gila dgn apa yg dia buat kt aku.. but now,i dont feel like wht i used to. i tink i hve no grudge on him now. :)
yes,i hve forgive him but still i can't forget what he has done to me. only god knows how i feel. what he has dont to me does gve impact to my life now. i become a person who is hard to believe in a guy's love n i keep on remindin myself to not fall in love again. un4tunately, i'm not that strong to not feel IN LOVE again. hehe..
i don't know if this what u call love.. or is it only a crush? i don't know.. but yes,i'm so comfortable when i'm with him. he calms me. whatever he says to me,mkes me smile. i wish i cn be with him but i guess i can't. i dont wanna repeat the same mistake again. i know who i m. n i know myself very well. i can't b a good gf. i know i can't. the only thing tht i can do is just hurtin' him again n again. n of course i don't wanna do that to the one tht i love. hurtin' a person tht i love will gve me so much pain. n i can't bear it.
so i decided to remain s his friend for now. i'm not sure if he's willin to wait for me to be with me. well,it's oke if he's givin' up on me n want to be with some1 else. i'm not goin' to blame him because,if being with another girl cn mke him happy,y shud i be sad? rite? i just want to see him happy thou we can't be together s a lover. but i m so glad to b his friend for now.. :)
he has brighten my life n he didn't feel ashamed to be with me. :)
thank you for being with me all this while thou only s a friend. but i'm grateful to have u s my bestest friend babe. i'm damn glad! :)
let's just pray that we will be together one day n i will never hurt u like i used to do to my exs. :)
I HEART U, BABE. :))
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