my tears flow for you :')

sayangnya lah aku dekat kau nie :')

ntah apa kau dh buat kat aku sampai aku sayang kau mcm nie kan? hehe. aku x sangka aku akn fall in love dgn "unda age" boy lg.. mmg aku dh pangkah dulu,aku xnk couple dgn lelaki yg lagi muda dr aku,tp tuh lah,kdg2 apa yg kita xnk tuh lah yg kita akan dapat. and to be honest,aku x menyesal kenal and dapat kau :)

sikit demi sikit,persepsi aku terhadap lelaki berubah. mmg betol,bukan sume lelaki sama,kau yg tunjukkan bukti tu kat aku. and one thing,bukan sume budak muda perangai x matang. sbb kn life kau,sejarah family kau,kau jd lagi matang,and perhaps,lagi matang dr aku :)

frankly,kau jer lelaki yg tahan dgn angin aku,maki-hamun aku,b4 this x pernah ada bf aku yg tahan dgn mulut aku nie. kalau tahan pn sekejap je lah,then terus minx break. but u not like them. no matter how many times i wanted u to let me go,but u refused. no matter what reasons i gave to u. u still wanna me to stay with u. and that makes my tears drop baby :')

dalam tempoh 4bln nie,mcm-mcm kita dah hadapi. suka duka,bergaduh tuh x pyh cite lah. ALMOST EVERYDAY! 

and kalau x gaduh,aku rs x lengkap! mesti cr isu nk gaduh jugak! hahaha. stupid kan? mmg pn! ;P

tapi alhamdulilah,hbungan aku n dia masih kekal lg,im still counting for another 2 months,tp insyaallah aku dpt rs kan hbungan nie boleh kekal and nie lah CINTA SEJATI yg aku tgu-tgu selama nie.. Insyaallah. aku xkn pernah berhenti berdoa. :)

I SAYANG YOU B.. I XNK TAHU KISAH SILAM YOU,SEJARAH YOU DGN EXS YOU. SBB I KENAL YOU YG SKRG AND YOU DH BUKTIKAN KAT I YG YOU MMG DH BERUBAH AND YOU AKAN TERUS BERUBAH UTK JADI "ADAM" YG TERBAIK UTK "HAWA" INI. I BERSYUKUR B,SBB YOU BUKAN LAGI AHMAD SYAHIRAN YANG DULU,YANG "JAHILIAH". I PUN NAK BERUBAH,I HARAP YOU DPT BIMBING I.. INSYAALLAH,DGN BERKAT ALLAH,KITA DAPAT HIDUP BERSAMA.. AMIN..

I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART SAYANG ;)

new skirt and shoessss and spagheti! yayyy!

yabedabeduuuuuuuuu!
aku dapat shopping jugaak harini! hehe. habis seratus jgk lah for these 3 items. aku beli :

1. skirt and spagheti - FOS

2. ballerina shoe - VINCCI

hehehe.. d sebabkan kewangan sangat lah tidak stabil skrg nie,nie jer lah yg mampu aku beli. hikhik. tkpe tkpe,kne sabar skit. insyallah dh keje t boleh beli yg extra expensive and branded. heee ;)

aku shopping nie pown sbb gatherin boy aku lah. dia ada gatherin jumaat depan,21st January 2011 kt Kl. dgn kwn2 Serdang dia i guess. aku plak dh x tao nk pkai baju apa. so alang2 mama n abah ajak shopping ptg td,aku pn g lah beli mana2 yg patot. hehe. kasot yg aku nak xda,so aku beli jer lah ballerina shoe tuh. x kisah lah. janji ada kasut. ingt kan nk beli Converse shoe,tp s i said earlier DUIT NYA NGAK MENCUKUPI!!! HAHAHAHA so sabar jer lahh. grrr. ;P

sooooooooo.. for gatherin boy aku t,i know exactly what i want to wear to look pretty in front of him. heee ;)) 

D to the I to the E to the T.

kenapaaaaa?
kenapa saya senang gemoxx? isk isk isk.
today 12/01/2011.
aku memulakan hari diet aku! hehehe.. lauk lunch nie mmg menggoda aku habis! tp aku x kn terpedaya dgn nafsu makan aku.. hahaha. sbb aku btol btol nk diet! x leh jadi nie.. blum kawen perot dh boncit lain mcm. dh kawen t mcm mne? dh ada anak nnti mcm mne? haaa! so better aku ikat perot skrg. org kata lepas dh kawen ssh nk diet and ssh nk kuruss. hee. so better lah aku diet skrg! ;)
lauk harini punya lah fantastic. ayam msak lemak cilik api,telur msak merah,sup so'un(mcm mne ntah nk eja,aku pn x reti..reti sebut jer!) and ikan rebuss gorg. fuuuuuuuuhh. mmg best! tkper,aku diet nasi jer. lauk x!!! HAHAHAHA 
so aku still boleh makan lauk lauk tuhh.. hikhikhik ;P
but it's like a man eating tofu. it's delicious,but no satisfaction. huu. aku try lah seminggu x makan nasi. kalau ok,aku cont smpai sebulan. hehehe ;)
pg td aku breakfast roti bakar n milo jer. for the 1st time i made my own breakfast in Klang. hmm. kalau kt Kl pn jarang lah aku buat breakfast sndri. usually aku breakfast kt gerai2 tepi kolej aku. senang! and duit pn senang habiss! hahaha :D


so the conclusion is,hopefully aku berjaya x makan nasi harini. dh kurg sikit boncit aku nie,aku stop lah diet. bukan forever aku nk diet. heeeeeeeeee :D
GO AKI GO!!!!!!!!! 

tengok lah muka sayaaaaaaaaaaa!

makin kembang dan kembang! hahahaha XD

seriously I need to diet ohh. -.-"

10/01/2011.

today gonna b his first day of working in Raoul. 

"baby,takot lahh.."

hehehe.. I dun know why he's so scared to start his first day serving customer in Raoul. hehe.. there's nothing to be afraid of sayang :)

hahaha! i ckp org pndai kan? t i dh start keje,on my 1st day i boleh demam plak!! who knows? ;P

i believe in you sayang.. i know u will do ur best ;)

i always pray for ur success in ur life b,i rly wanna see u to have a great life today and forever ;)

soooooo.. jangan takut takut lagi okey? 

the time now shows 4.10pm,and i'm still waiting for you to text me or call me to tell me how's ur first day working there. heee ;)

GAMBATTE BABYYYYYYYYYYY!! XD

whatever I do,I say,always become an issue. hmmm. 

sick and tired of what people judge bout me!

yes!!!!!!
so fuckin sick okeyy!!! and whatever they accused bout me is not trueeeeeeee!
just because im like this,tak reti nak tutup aurat so u guys can simply judge me whatever u like,rite? so pathetic. come on lah,nobody's perfect. so do i. so do u! i just wish u can stop make bad accusations bout me. kalau betul kau tak suka berkawan dgn aku,so stop being my friend. tak perlu pura2 baik depan aku,tp belakang aku kau ckp mcm2 smpai terguris hati aku. jgn salah kan aku kalau aku dpt tao siapa manusia2 yg ckp bukan2 psal aku,and aku xkan mungkin dpt maafkan manusia2 ini. so kau tanggung lah dosa kau tuh sendiri okey? :)
see? now i m being rude and bad! because i m so fuckin exhausted being so nice to people but in the end all i get is humiliation. sangat sakit okey? kalau lah korg kt tempat aku,cmfirm korg akn phm apa yg aku rs..

so rite now,all i cn do is that, buat bodo jer dgn apa yg korg nk ckp psal aku.. selagi aku masih boleh sabar,yes,i will stay calm. apa yg aku boleh ckp,stop bothering me will you? i aint nobody. so x perlu korg nk semakkan otak korg dgn apa yg aku buat okey? u got ur own life,and i got mine. its okey if u want to advise me,but say it straight to my face. stop being a chicken by insultin me and accused me at my formspring,will you? please do respect others so that others will respect u back. okey? i think its good if u just stay away frm my life and stop being a bzbody anymore. thanks :)

the great weekend in the first week of 2011! ;)))

1st January 2011

Our third time of seeing each other after being separated for almost two months. Damn! Being far away from the beloved one is not good for me. Serioushit! HAHAHA! This was the most exciting celebration of new year I ever had. I really had fun on that new year eve's. Thank god Mr.G is with me,otherwise,I think I may not b safe on that nite! HAHA! He just know how to control me,to calm me. Heee ;)

I never tot we can b one. We've been livin' in two different ages. And I bet,others won't believe that our relationship may last long. Seriously sayang,so do I. All I can do is that,serving u the best and the rest,I leave it to Lord. He knows exactly whats the best for you n me. N now,whats the best for me is that havin' u by my side and feel your love that I never felt before. 

Thank you b,for everything you've done and for loving me with all your heart.

I can see the sincerity of your love for me. 

ILYSFDM! ;)))

HAPPY NEW YEAR OF 2011 EVERYBODYYYYYYYYYYYY!